Heights by great men reached and kept
were not obtained by sudden flight,
but they, while their companions slept,
were toiling upward in the night.
— from Success, by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Rules are not necessarily sacred; principles are.
–Franklin D. Roosevelt
For 30 days, starting tomorrow, I commit to doing the following things to feel better about myself and be healthier:
Obviously, the hope is that these things become permanent habits, but I’m not going to look that far down the road. One month. That’s totally doable.
She loved the big, proud bodies of the women in the choir, and how they could swing, and how planted on the earth they seemed, with no apology for taking up so much space. It was as if they assumed they were beautiful, and only needed to decide what color to dress the beauty in.
— from Blue Shoe, by Anne LaMott
Another week, another failure of . . . willpower? Determination? Giveafuck? I don’t know. But once again, when I weigh in tomorrow, I’m going to show a gain. I hate this. I hate myself like this. And yet, given the choice between, say, chocolate or an apple for a snack, or going to the gym or coming home and screwing around on the internet, I nearly always choose chocolate and the internet. I’m so tired of being tired of this.
I don’t know how to start making better choices. I don’t know how to commit to something, for real, long term. I mean, just DO it, is the short answer, but how? I can string together days, even a week or two of good habits, but somehow I always get off track.
I think I need to have something to work for, besides just losing weight. For example, I realized once Couch to 5k training ended weeks before the 5k, which isn’t until the 22nd of this month, that if I didn’t have something to keep me going, I would just quit running altogether. So I signed up for a local series of 5k Fridays – a 5k each Friday evening in April! That’s kept me running at least twice a week (though I haven’t done anything else). I did the first one this past week and finished in 45:00 exactly. For me, that’s amazing – my mile splits were 14:29, more than a minute faster than anything I did in training!
Once April’s over, though, I don’t have anything to work for. I don’t think I’m interested in running longer distances – it’s all I can do to stave off boredom in a 5k. I could maybe do a 10k, but that’s not what’s next for me, I’ve decided. I think what I’m going to work towards is a sprint triathlon. I first read about this mysterious thing on Big Life, Little Blog, and it planted a seed. I didn’t even know there was such a thing – I thought all triathlons were those crazy Ironman ones, where you swim 2.5 miles, ride 112 miles, and then your insane ass runs a marathon. That would probably kill me. But a sprint tri? This one, in particular? I can totally do that.
I can already swim 300 yards, bike 12 miles, and run a 5k. The challenge for me will be doing those things in succession and in anything resembling a decent time. Practically speaking, the biggest hurdle for me will be finding a pool and getting there regularly to train. I love swimming, so much, and I’m excited to get back in the water.
So, I’m telling you here: I’m doing this. I need to do some more research and figure out a training program, which I will post here, for accountability purposes. Come September 17th, I’ll be able to call myself a triathlete!
Talk not of wasted affection, affection never was wasted,
If it enrich not the heart of another, its waters, returning
Back to their springs, like the rain, shall fill them full of refreshment;
That which the fountain sends forth returns again to the fountain.
— from Evangeline: A Tale of Acadie, by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

May your blessings outnumber
The shamrocks that grow,
And may trouble avoid you
Wherever you go.
–Irish Blessing
Finally. It’s cake time. I found the inspiration for this cake on Pinterest, and the original link is here. She doesn’t give a tutorial, and I think it’s pretty self-explanatory, but I’ll give some pictures and tips. You can do this with any color scheme – rainbow is very popular these days, too!
I thought this would be a great thing to do with Ellie and Adam when they came up to DC for the circus. When they got here, I mixed up the cake batter (I used one box of white cake mix, but homemade is certainly great, too) and separated it into 6 small bowls and mugs, 1/2 cup of batter per container. I had some batter left; probably enough to make at least two more layers, but that would have made for a disastrously tall cake! Then I dropped varying amounts of green food coloring into each of them to get deeper and darker greens and let Ellie and Adam mix them up. (I took the original blogger’s suggestion to leave one layer white, but I don’t think I will next time. It’s just a matter of preference.)
I can’t tell you the precise number of drops of food coloring per bowl, except for the lightest green, which has only one drop. I do wish I could have gotten darker greens at the end for more contrast, but this turned out just fine. I suspect food gel would give you a more customizable array.
Next, I poured each bowl into a greased 5-inch cake pan. The original blogger used 6-inch pans, and I can’t say really why I bought 5-inch, but either would be ok. I only had two, so I started with the darkest two batters, since they would be the bottom layers. I baked them at whatever temperature the box said, but for much less time. I started with 10 minutes, and when they weren’t done, I kept checking every two minutes or so. I think I found 14 minutes to be the perfect amount of time. However hot your oven runs, they’re done when a toothpick stuck in the center comes out clean.
Once they’re done, they have to cool in the pans for about 10 minutes. This is where the patience comes in (the kids were long in bed by this time). After 10 minutes, turn them out on a wire rack to cool completely, and then regrease and refill the cake pans with the next lightest batters.
The cake on the right had a slight dome to it, and since it was the base layer and I wanted it to be flat, I just took a serrated knife and cut the dome off.
Repeat until all your layers are done.
Next is frosting. I used canned vanilla frosting, and it took about a can and a half. I cannot emphasize enough the cardinal rule of frosting cakes: make sure the layers are completely cool before frosting. Otherwise, you’ll have crumby frosting, and no one likes crumby frosting.
Start with the darkest layer and cover the flat top with a thin coating of frosting. Build up, from darkest to lightest.
When you frost the top layer, you can let the frosting fall over the sides and smooth it out. I found that it was easiest to sort of do a thin “base coat” of frosting on the sides and then go back over it with more frosting to make it look pretty. For decoration, I used the aerosol frosting from Wilton; I found it at Target in the baking aisle, but I’ve seen it in the grocery store, too. It’s like EZ Cheese, but frosting. Awesome. It comes with four different frosting tips. For the base, I used the star tip, and for the shamrock, I used the thin piping tip. It was hard to get used to the pressure it took to make the frosting come out, so I ended up with more green on top than I would have liked. But it worked out perfectly, because I just took a toothpick and swirled the edges of the shamrock into the white of the frosting underneath and got this neat textured look on top!
After the circus and the museum and the butterflies on Saturday, we had dinner at Red Robin and then came home for dessert. The kids were super excited and, I’m not going to lie, so was I. I couldn’t wait to cut into it, and I wasn’t disappointed:
I was so in love. The kids were thrilled, and they gobbled it up, along with a little vanilla ice cream! It was delicious!
You guys, this is so easy, you can do it for any holiday or color scheme you can think of. I’d love to see pics if you attempt this!